Tori Spelling is opening up about why she is grateful for her final conversation with Shannen Doherty before her Beverly Hills, 90210 costar’s death.
Spelling, 51, revealed on the latest episode of her podcast 90210MG that she wanted to learn from her past experiences with losing loved ones.
“I’ve had a lot of death in my life, and I don’t believe in regrets,” she told co-host Jennie Garth. “But I have a lot of regrets that I didn’t have that time to have a second chance to get past stuff from the past and look at all the good things and really talk it out and have that last conversation.”
“I feel like she and I had that, and I’m super grateful for that,” she added.
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Garth, 52, appreciated that Spelling had an opportunity to say goodbye to their former costar.
“I was thinking definitely of you, Tor, and how happy you must have been to have that time with her and to have that sort of just reconnection on a deeper level as both of you matured and grown and learned so much,” she shared.
“I wished that I had had that opportunity because I didn’t really get to sit down and have like [a] heartfelt conversation with her recently, but I was very glad that you did,” she added.
Both Spelling and Garth also remembered the late actress, who died at age 53 on July 14 after years of living with cancer, in respective posts on social media.
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“In a world where we often don’t get to make up with the childhood friendships that formed so much of the adult you become, we got that chance,” Spelling shared in part on Instagram. “I’m grateful @theshando and I got to go back in time as adult friends and remember why we truly loved each other to begin with. To reminisce. And, to iconically laugh again like we used to. No one could make me laugh like that. Core laughs!”
Spelling called her late costar — who played Brenda Walsh on the teen drama series for four seasons until her character was written off in 1994 — “a rebel in an era when most women didn’t feel comfortable being strong.”
“She never tried she just was,” she recalled. “She empowered sexiness, strength, 2 f—s given, empathy, and all topped off with wicked humor! Her sardonic humor was one of my faves. And, no one made a frito pie like Shan!”
She concluded her tribute with a message for Doherty, vowing to keep her spirit alive. “Shan… I’ll carry the torch on. Take on my power! And, I’ll stay rebellious for you. Love you with all my heart. Always. 🖤💔”
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In her own tribute, Garth shared, “I am still processing my tremendous grief over the loss of my longtime friend Shannen, the woman I have often described as one of the strongest people I have ever known,” Garth wrote. “Our connection was real and honest. We were so often pitted against each other, but none of that reflected the truth of our real relationship which was one built on mutual respect and admiration.”
She went on to remember Doherty as “courageous, passionate, determined and very loving and generous.”
“I will miss her and will always honor her deeply in my heart and in my memories. My heart breaks for her family and Bowie,” Garth concluded, referencing Doherty’s dog.
